Today I turned 31 years old. As with the last couple of birthdays I have had, I experienced a feeling of discontentment, or perhaps regret. I thought about all the years that have gone by and all the things I told myself I would do; The skills I would learn, the degree that I would finish and the job that I would get. Fortunately, some of these goals are within reaching distance, but others feel very very far away. The truth is that I’ve never been good at focusing on one or two things at a time. As a result, not much value was extracted during these short periods of focus. I feel like I have done nothing.
Life is passing me by and all I am doing is going through the motions. I have tried a few times – with varying degrees of success – to get into a routine of focused study time to develop my skill set. As you may have guessed, these attempts never really stuck. At first, everything seems to get going well and then after a month or so the spark disappears and the engine of progress stalls once more.
Making a change…
The reason I set this blog up was to motivate myself to keep things moving. My idea is that posting topics around my study or just being productive will maintain my motivation. Hopefully, this will help me to form a permanent habit. The blog and study should also mutually benefit from one another. If I don’t study or come up with ideas about productivity during the week I will not have much to post about, for example. And writing about the previous week will allow me to analyse which study techniques work better for me than others.
Writing has never really been something I excel at either. Hopefully, keeping up this blog will help me develop my writing voice too. Because, as they say practice makes perfect. This is the end of me saying “I have done nothing”. And is the beginning of me doing everything.