I have had this site for a long time now, but, I have never really done anything with it. The domain name was a fun nod to the fact that I frequently pick up new things – hobbies, books, games, etc. – and spend a little time with them until a new focus comes into my life, then forget about the original thing I had.

Perhaps I have some diagnosed form of ADHD or I am terrible at time management but whatever the root cause the result is that I don’t ever make much progress in anything.

The original purpose of this blog was to help me practice writing and self-expression because I always found it difficult to write ideas in reports for university. Each and every line I wrote felt like a monumental effort and the whole experience of writing felt alien to me. Communication is something that almost everyone can do and it is a core function of being human. Even if I have a clear idea of what I would like to say to other people I seem to fumble my ideas when translating them to speech or in written form.

Going back to Study

I have one more year left at university. I have been deferring my final year for a long time. Life always throws its little inconveniences in our way and for me, some of them have made it difficult to see a path where I can study effectively. However, this year I decided I wanted to get it over and done with. I need to do something finally.

Dread has been growing slowly in my mind since I applied for my final class at university. Years have passed since I last studied and to complete my degree I need to self-manage a keystone project. The self-doubt and fear about being able to keep everything together are causing me stress.

I’m overthinking things. And negative self-talk is a bad habit of mine. Talking to myself like a friend is a technique that I’ll put into practice. Hopefully, the more positive messaging will calm my nerves. Time will tell.

This blog

I am going to try make this blog a place where I write on a regular basis. Sharing my thoughts has become a rare thing for me these days. So I am just trying to open myself up a little more.